|When I heard he had been torn from this world,|
I felt as if I'd lost a best friend and I cried.
I felt silly, having such grief over someone I never
knew. And people told me I was silly to feel such grief.
But I did.
I felt a punch in the stomach
when I heard the news on the radio.
And then I cried. And cried.
When I could bring myself to watch him in a movie,
I cried. I counted the days since his loss,
the weeks, the months, until it hit 1 year.
Like people do with a lost family member.
Somehow, someway River instilled something in me
that made me feel close to him and made me feel
the loss of him. And I still do.
6 years later - I miss him.
God bless him and God bless his family.
I can only imagine their endless grief.
|Kim Lange - Manahawkin, New Jersey,
November 12, 1999